Merry Christmas

This holiday season, I have decided to basically spend it alone! Yes, I think that I really want to do this. So, my plans are to be here, do what I want, when I want, and do not have to answer to anyone here on this earth. Nothing wrong with that, is there? Anyways, I have also realized that since I have made this decsion, well, It seems that every body that needs my assistance decides to come out of the wood work. Yepp... and well, I would be able to assist, if I were able to.
Really.. I would do whatever possibly can to help.
But when some one is insisting that there has to be a way... uh.... wow... I realize just how some people can be so selfish. I guess, the way that I feel is that, I feel pushed away, and then at the same time .... demanded upon... Would people just make up their minds?? Thats really all that I ask. I cannot read people's minds, and I cannot help if they do not say anything.
There has been situations that have come up that was quite to be unexpected, and uh, let me deal with what I have to deal with, but , please do not put anymore on my plate, ok ?
I wish that I could write down my feelings and have them sort out for me, whether it be work related, personal, personal finance, friendships.... just to have them sorted, that would be nice. Anyways, I just wanted to post tonight .. to guess to say Merry Christmas to all.... :)).... I know that the new year will be a good one!

PEACE!

Merry

I believe that the spirit of Christmas better be in your heart, before you go out and buy things for people that you do not like or even respect until after the fact..
I do understand that durng this season, the can be alot of depression, and sadness, for the people that they each have had to love in the past can effect people in a funny but good way.

When I first became to know the Lord Jesus Christ is the Saviour of our sins.. it was in July when I was baptised in Jesus' name. As I started to get to know our Lord, You do realize that the 'holidays' were pretty much right around the corner, I was starting to wonder about what I really believed in, because it was in that year that I realized just how 'commercial' the 'holidays' are. I kept it inside for a bit, and tried to just let things happen.. to allow my Christianity to grow and that I would feel the Love that we are 'supposed'to feel. Well, I ended up calling my Pastor for an appointment, because I was not feeing the Spirit like thought I should be. My Pastor eplained to me that alot of younbg Christians go through this, and that you are to still keep your Faith, and do what you know is right in your heart.
PEACE!