Yes... I have been away from this area of the apt lately! I think that I am really really trying to absorb all this that is going. It really is alot to absorb, Well, maybe that may not even be the proper word for it. I know something is happening to me that I think is good, not quite sure what yet... but its happening.
I know that I have had anxiety attacks, but I have not told anyone about them. The kids would worry too much and they already have enough on their plates. I know that they are having a hard time understanding what has happened, and why some people are the way they are, I hate to tell them, that this is what growing up is all about. There are good relationships, and there are just those sour ones that you try to sweeten up, and no matter what you do... and then the juices decides to SQUIRT you in the eye,,, hmmmmm
Yepp, and the ones you thought to be closest to you is the one doing the SQUIRTING.
A couple of times, I have felt my heart beating sooo hard on my chest, it actually scared me. I know at that point, there really is nothing that can be done but just stay as calm as I can. Do NOT stress. I have felt that I have done all that I can in the recent situations that I have had to deal with... and if all that I have done, cannot change anything, then its really not about what you can do to stop it, but to resolve it, someway! I listen to Regina, and I listen to Bryan... Did you know that they stress differently? Oh yes they do, and I don't think that they realize that I am watching them, and seeing their hurt. They have not been raised in your normal two adult family. I raised them, and was told by a youth counselor that we were the most functional... disfunctional family that they have talked to in a long time.
They are learning the hardships of life, and to deal with it in a grown up way, is kind of hard... Cuz you know what? This adult is having a hard time with it too! They do not realize, yet, that it is not a Chinese thing... It is a generational thing. My sister and I grew up at the same time, and there is such a difference between the two of us that it really amazes me. Anyways, I think I am glad that I got that out of my system, they will see one day that it really is not about what they think its about.. Its really just about HER! I have tried! What is the saying.. that says.. something about how many times do you keep trying and getting slapped down b4 you give up? Its something to that effect!
PE@CE!
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Have you seen...10%?
It's Saturday morning.. or Friday night, I just woke up... strange! Anyways, durng the course of the week, I did post my resume on Craigslist, just to see what is out there! Well, all of a sudden I started to get a few responses from the post. I have been getting some email to become a 'Representative' to a company that is operatored in another country.
Hmmm , that did not seem strange at first; Actually I thought I had somethng going. It sure did seem very logical, and also innocent, as far as the way that it when explained. It just seem like it is too good to be true, and when you get that feeling, more than likely, it is something that it should be checked into even more thoroughly. Some have even offered to live their house, while they go home and attend to the business close at hand. Stay in the house for FREE, no charging on those kinds of dwellngs. Anyways, it tells me that they have a business in the their home country, whether it be India, or Morocco, or even Belguim. This email also says that they need trustng person's need only reply. Customers send (me) the amounts that is owed, and they pay it! Understood! These people are offering 10% of the amount that is paid, just so that you can cash the check, or Money order, or whatever, and for you to forward the money via mailgram, wire transfer, or whatever way is quickest, and simplist. So the decison was made, that there would another address that you would send your money to, and Oh but first, you would have to take your 10% out and then send the money to 'your boss' Wow, you would be getting paid before the boss would and to have someone that he can trust to have this money in possession to send out to him/her! I would say that that is alot of trust!
Anyways, these emails are coming in like its nobody's business. I am averaging oh about 5 a day, and everyone owns their own business. Has anyone actually responded to one of those kinds of ads?? On the serious side of this ... is.... ?
I think that if there is more money to be taken care of like that, I would at least give a try, to just inquiry within. What do you think about this? And would they have to send me to school for that? So, please advise when the bank is done, and all that good stuff.
Please,fill out the attached Account form and email back. We will take a look at all the applicants, and we shall see if you are the one for the job! That is alot of information to be giving out to someone that you do not even know, but yet, it is oK for companies and corporations to do this, take all of your personal information, and they even get to test our urine.. how about that? Anyways, has anyone one heard any 'Yays' or 'Nays' on one of these types of 'Offer's???? I would really like to hear from you... Is it Illegal? Is it a scam?
PE@CE!
I should not have went back and read... I am ready for the physical, really my own concern is with my branch will have to say, on monday!
Hmmm , that did not seem strange at first; Actually I thought I had somethng going. It sure did seem very logical, and also innocent, as far as the way that it when explained. It just seem like it is too good to be true, and when you get that feeling, more than likely, it is something that it should be checked into even more thoroughly. Some have even offered to live their house, while they go home and attend to the business close at hand. Stay in the house for FREE, no charging on those kinds of dwellngs. Anyways, it tells me that they have a business in the their home country, whether it be India, or Morocco, or even Belguim. This email also says that they need trustng person's need only reply. Customers send (me) the amounts that is owed, and they pay it! Understood! These people are offering 10% of the amount that is paid, just so that you can cash the check, or Money order, or whatever, and for you to forward the money via mailgram, wire transfer, or whatever way is quickest, and simplist. So the decison was made, that there would another address that you would send your money to, and Oh but first, you would have to take your 10% out and then send the money to 'your boss' Wow, you would be getting paid before the boss would and to have someone that he can trust to have this money in possession to send out to him/her! I would say that that is alot of trust!
Anyways, these emails are coming in like its nobody's business. I am averaging oh about 5 a day, and everyone owns their own business. Has anyone actually responded to one of those kinds of ads?? On the serious side of this ... is.... ?
I think that if there is more money to be taken care of like that, I would at least give a try, to just inquiry within. What do you think about this? And would they have to send me to school for that? So, please advise when the bank is done, and all that good stuff.
Please,fill out the attached Account form and email back. We will take a look at all the applicants, and we shall see if you are the one for the job! That is alot of information to be giving out to someone that you do not even know, but yet, it is oK for companies and corporations to do this, take all of your personal information, and they even get to test our urine.. how about that? Anyways, has anyone one heard any 'Yays' or 'Nays' on one of these types of 'Offer's???? I would really like to hear from you... Is it Illegal? Is it a scam?
PE@CE!
I should not have went back and read... I am ready for the physical, really my own concern is with my branch will have to say, on monday!
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Memorial, Legal, and No more Work?
Well, it seems that "http://bzbusiness.blogspot.com/" my son says it perfect, as to how the day of the Service went.
We had other things to take care of... some legal stuff that we have to file an answer to, and in the midst of all of that, Mr Fed Ex appeared at my door, and I received a paycheck, with my vacation, and last week's pay on it! Hmmm, I was termnated from my position? Sure does seem like it to me. I am attempting to get ahold of my HR person, to find out what the reason is. Enough of the crap with the manager at my branch. There has not been any comradere there, and I do not feel as if there has been any support, or at least the right type of support when a situation comes up. Is there still such a thing called 'Wrongful Termination'? Will update as I know more!
PE@CE!
We had other things to take care of... some legal stuff that we have to file an answer to, and in the midst of all of that, Mr Fed Ex appeared at my door, and I received a paycheck, with my vacation, and last week's pay on it! Hmmm, I was termnated from my position? Sure does seem like it to me. I am attempting to get ahold of my HR person, to find out what the reason is. Enough of the crap with the manager at my branch. There has not been any comradere there, and I do not feel as if there has been any support, or at least the right type of support when a situation comes up. Is there still such a thing called 'Wrongful Termination'? Will update as I know more!
PE@CE!
Monday, January 22, 2007
Another Day of Finalization,AFC Championship!
Its Monday, and I tell ya, I had a very busy, busy day yesterday. I turned in the keys to the landlady, and we went out to Golden Gate Park, and had a picnic. Gina and Craig really went all out to have this event to be just right! We decided since there was no real official memeorial service for my brother, we decided to take a plant out of his backyard, and plant it in the park. The day went as planned, and we had our minutes of memorial. He is high on a hill in the Great park of Golden Gate. The kids and I had some closure, and it was all good. It was beautifully warm when we got out there. We started the grills, and started to eat. We also had the service, and the sun was just setting perfect on the hill. Right at that point, it got COLD.. we were all starting to get cold from the weather. Brrrrrrr
We got back to Gina's place, and oh wow, the AFC Champonship game was on, we decded to stay there to finish watching the final quarter of the football game. WOW, DaBears, and the Colts are gonna go the Super Bowl.. What a game that is going to be!
PE@CE!
We got back to Gina's place, and oh wow, the AFC Champonship game was on, we decded to stay there to finish watching the final quarter of the football game. WOW, DaBears, and the Colts are gonna go the Super Bowl.. What a game that is going to be!
PE@CE!
Friday, January 19, 2007
You Would Think!
Yo', Today you would think that I would get alot of stuff done? Well, have you ever had one of those days, that you set out to get things accomplished, and.... then you realize that all you got accomplished was standing in lines, and WAIT!! Yepp, that is the kind of day that I had; Did not get much accomplished, but I tell you, the effort was there........lol...Gotta laugh about it, otherwise I would just be here in tears.
Tomorrow will be the last day that I will be going to Alameda, my brother's apartment. Thats it! I have to say that I am finished at some point, cuz you know it could just go on and on! I called all the utilty companies today to shut off, or end the service at his address. It was not as bad as the first two that I had to do. Wow, just a reminder to myself, that I have to make an appointment with the landlord over there, the last time I talked to her, was on Wednesday, and I was not doing so good, that day.
Yea... I shared alittle of what I am going through with my little brother. First time I have ever done that. I think it must shock him how much I can go through and somehow make it a positive thing. I met with Eva... the beneficiary's daughter... last night. There is a bigger language barrier with me and her mom, than I have with me and my folks. So, I decided that I would talk to Eva, instead. Told her what needs to be written in a 'statement' form, and to fax it to my brother, and then at that point, as the Death Certificate comes, both of the claims can be done on one certificate. In case she wanted to send it alone, I did leave her the information of what to do and where to send it.
I will be leaving alot there.. OH wait, we may just donate the rest of the stuff, to the same place that we donated the clothes. Hey, you know, I do not feel so bad that I would have to leave so much bigger items for the landlady to take of. I would have left it there, but, you know, that is not kewl, either. Anyways, I do feel better about finshing this project up! Yepp, I sure do. And I was telling my brother about it too! Its been a hard job, and someone had to do it... So, I did.
I did end up sending the landlord more money, like I normally do. He will see that I am not the one trying to mess him up on money. I just want to be pretty much left alone, and let me do my thing. With this court stuff, to me it is just like taking up my time. I wonder how many other people he does this to? I do have my personal feelings and opinions, but I have to keep them to myself. Shhhhhh... I think he is the most arrogant, and belittling person I have ever talked to, or met. I felt that the day that I met him. But to get affordable housing, one has to just shut my mouth. What really gets to me is that .... wooooooo him being the property manager, and we being the people renting from him, he can really say or do anything that he wants, we have to be at his mercy. Yea... like when he claims he did not get our rent in September, and did not tell us anything until our stove went haywire... told me another something else about him.
What is he really doing with my landlady's money? Borrowing on it, so that every time we call him, he is on some sort of vacation or something? Yea, I see alot of 'slick' in the guy, but I see right through him... I have met people like him before, and I just have that feeling. He knows how to pass judgement on people, that is for sure. He has demonstated it in conversations with me, that totally shocked me! Anyways, I do not want to get MAD... someone told me.. Get even! LOL
Then I think, Do I really want to live under those kinds of conditions? Someone like that is all about $$$ the almighty dollar$$$! Unfortunately, the majority of our society is like that, and is something that we all have to live with. Anyways, yes, I have kind of gave a guestamation of things that I could have sold, but gave to people that needed, instead... I could have made payment to him... But that is not how I am.. Maybe I should be, though,...... eh ? Time for some GUITAR HERO!!!
PE@CE!!
Tomorrow will be the last day that I will be going to Alameda, my brother's apartment. Thats it! I have to say that I am finished at some point, cuz you know it could just go on and on! I called all the utilty companies today to shut off, or end the service at his address. It was not as bad as the first two that I had to do. Wow, just a reminder to myself, that I have to make an appointment with the landlord over there, the last time I talked to her, was on Wednesday, and I was not doing so good, that day.
Yea... I shared alittle of what I am going through with my little brother. First time I have ever done that. I think it must shock him how much I can go through and somehow make it a positive thing. I met with Eva... the beneficiary's daughter... last night. There is a bigger language barrier with me and her mom, than I have with me and my folks. So, I decided that I would talk to Eva, instead. Told her what needs to be written in a 'statement' form, and to fax it to my brother, and then at that point, as the Death Certificate comes, both of the claims can be done on one certificate. In case she wanted to send it alone, I did leave her the information of what to do and where to send it.
I will be leaving alot there.. OH wait, we may just donate the rest of the stuff, to the same place that we donated the clothes. Hey, you know, I do not feel so bad that I would have to leave so much bigger items for the landlady to take of. I would have left it there, but, you know, that is not kewl, either. Anyways, I do feel better about finshing this project up! Yepp, I sure do. And I was telling my brother about it too! Its been a hard job, and someone had to do it... So, I did.
I did end up sending the landlord more money, like I normally do. He will see that I am not the one trying to mess him up on money. I just want to be pretty much left alone, and let me do my thing. With this court stuff, to me it is just like taking up my time. I wonder how many other people he does this to? I do have my personal feelings and opinions, but I have to keep them to myself. Shhhhhh... I think he is the most arrogant, and belittling person I have ever talked to, or met. I felt that the day that I met him. But to get affordable housing, one has to just shut my mouth. What really gets to me is that .... wooooooo him being the property manager, and we being the people renting from him, he can really say or do anything that he wants, we have to be at his mercy. Yea... like when he claims he did not get our rent in September, and did not tell us anything until our stove went haywire... told me another something else about him.
What is he really doing with my landlady's money? Borrowing on it, so that every time we call him, he is on some sort of vacation or something? Yea, I see alot of 'slick' in the guy, but I see right through him... I have met people like him before, and I just have that feeling. He knows how to pass judgement on people, that is for sure. He has demonstated it in conversations with me, that totally shocked me! Anyways, I do not want to get MAD... someone told me.. Get even! LOL
Then I think, Do I really want to live under those kinds of conditions? Someone like that is all about $$$ the almighty dollar$$$! Unfortunately, the majority of our society is like that, and is something that we all have to live with. Anyways, yes, I have kind of gave a guestamation of things that I could have sold, but gave to people that needed, instead... I could have made payment to him... But that is not how I am.. Maybe I should be, though,...... eh ? Time for some GUITAR HERO!!!
PE@CE!!
Its Friday
Happy Friday
As I have been sharing with you, What more can go on? At coolmama's corner.yahoo. I have expressed myself to a point where I just cannot seem to make things go right. I know that I need to take this all by the handle, and take care of it. What is it really that I am fighting for? I don't know! When things get to this point, where do you go, and what do you do?
I have to go file these court papers at the courthouse, and pay some more rent. So, um, and still call the utilties to disconnect the service at my brother's apartment. Its Days off, and is not really days off. I have so much to do! I guess I just better get with it.... No time to stop and think, at all. Now, is that a good thing? or a bad thing? Rent is paid. Does Discrimination apply in this case, I am not sure. This man that we have to call our landlord, has really made me think there the word, 'Slumlord' really exists! :(
PE@CE!
As I have been sharing with you, What more can go on? At coolmama's corner.yahoo. I have expressed myself to a point where I just cannot seem to make things go right. I know that I need to take this all by the handle, and take care of it. What is it really that I am fighting for? I don't know! When things get to this point, where do you go, and what do you do?
I have to go file these court papers at the courthouse, and pay some more rent. So, um, and still call the utilties to disconnect the service at my brother's apartment. Its Days off, and is not really days off. I have so much to do! I guess I just better get with it.... No time to stop and think, at all. Now, is that a good thing? or a bad thing? Rent is paid. Does Discrimination apply in this case, I am not sure. This man that we have to call our landlord, has really made me think there the word, 'Slumlord' really exists! :(
PE@CE!
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Today Be the Day, Scattering
So here I am, and was told yesterday, that the scattering will be done today. Ask me what time, and I could not tell you, as of this moment. I will attempt to call the Neptune Society, and they have to tell me at least what time he will be scattered at Sea!
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