Make My List

Okay, So I was to be in the City, late morning according to my younger brother. Not a problem. I am having a real hard time with this. My older brother and I were close as I was growing up. We did alot of things together, and he shared alot with me that he probably did not share with my sister or my other brother.

Dad thinks that Wayne went into the hospital last night, and he left us just this morning. This was so that we would not just bombard him with it all at once. See, I do not live in the City so I do not see my parents often, but I do keep in contact. I knew that once my dad saw me there, along with my sister and my brother.... He would have known that something was wrong. Wayne wanted to be cremated, and something very very private. We were trying to call places to find out what is the next step to do, and what kind of paperwork (legalities), .. Oh yea, and how many copies of the death certificate will we need? And all that kind of stuff. Being that I was the initial contact person, guess who gets go to my brothers apartment, and go through things? Yepp, you guessed right! I do not know how I will be, the day that I go out there to even open the door to his apartment. I first have to go the Alameda County morgue, to pick up the keys to the apartment, and the keys to the car, and other personal property that the county brought with my brother.

I have to go and look for any 'Important' papers. such insurance policies, bank accounts, and to gather up whatever recurring payments that he had to make eg: power bills, telephone bills, etc. Oh my goodness... Am I really going to be able to do this? I have my kids that will help me, and I think and I have a friend, Ms Dilly, that has gone through something like this before. Yes, my sister suggested that someone not so directly involved maybe can make the initial entrance for me.

When we were at my dad's house, my dad pulled me aside, and told me that Wayne really loved me alot. I knew that! Dad knew that we were tight, even when we were younger. There are things that I did not realize that we talked about that he never shared with my sister, or my brother. Wow! Alot of things going on through my head right now. I just called the County Dept, and let them know what was the game plan, and I need to ask for the Property Technician, to let them know that there are arrangements being made. With this being the holiday weekend, nothing can be done until Tuesday.

I had a real hard time holding it together in front of my dad. I had to keep reminding myself that! Wow! I need to make a list of things, so I know what I need to be looking for. Goodness.. I better get to that task.... I know that I need to be more aware of what I need to look for. Can anyone think of things that I need to put on this list in a situation like this? I do not want to overlook anything that may be needed right away. !

PEACE!

Not Looking Foreward to

Well, tomorrow will be the day that my sister, my brother and I will go and talk to my dad. I am not looking foreward to any of this. At this time, I am also worried just how my dad is going to take this. I have been trying to keep in a busy state so that I do not just think about the tasks that are ahead of me.

I did talk to a friend of mine that knows Oakland and does live in Alameda County, so that I do not feel so lost if I have to go to Oakland. So, that is one issue that I do not have to worry about. Back up plan, is what its called!

PEACE!

Being Told First

I have been doing alot of thinking today. What a horrible feeling it is to be "Told First' about bad news. This has never happened to me, that I was being told about my brother's death, as if I were the 'next of kin'. I mean, I am in that catagory, but being that my brother never married, and no children, my parents are the legal next of kin for my brother. The Deputy did get a hold of my parents, he explained, but because my parents did not understand what he was trying to convey, due to language barrier, the deputy went down the list of my brothers' contacts, I was pretty close to the top of that list.

I can now understand the feeling for getting 'that' call from the police, that something has happened to one of their loved ones. First, of course there is that initial shock. I really did not know what to do, with that information. My younger brother and I have not ever been in this situation. My sister has gone through this before, when her first husband was hit and run by a car, my brother-in-law was on a bicycle.

We have also delayed in telling my Dad. It would be best that all of us were together to talk to Dad about it, and my sister said that she will be in on Friday. Will Dad take this ok? I mean, even at 89, you really do not expect to outlive your children, and that is one thing that he will be dealing with, and that it is his first born son. I mean, last year, Dad had a leg amputated, due to Diabetic problems. I think that he has accepted his physical thing ok, but how will this news effect him? I am glad that I got a hold of my younger brother, because he lives in the same house as my parents, and he knows best what the situation there as far as the attitudes, and things going on there.

I go through my younger brother to find out what really is happening at the house, because my parents will make it sound like things are ok, just that acceptance, and knowing what should be said, or done at a certain time. Things have been a little rough on my Mom with now. When I spoke with her the other day, she told me that the male nurse's contract had expired.

When I spoke with the deputy this afternoon, he explained to me what the proper procedures were, as far as acting upon this type of thing. Making sure that there is a release signed by my Dad, so that us siblngs can do anything. We could not even be the ones to have the mortition go and pick up the body. And since I was the one that is the 'contact person', I get to have the privilage to go to the morgue to pick up any property, knowing that the keys of his apartment, and the keys to garage, and the keys to my brother's car, and a couple of his credit cards, he said, just in case his apartment may get vandalized, even with the apartment 'sealed' up.

The officer already, as well, warned me what to expect when I enter his apartment. Oh my goodness, I do not know if I am quite ready for this, to be honest. First of all, I do not know Alameda, city or county for that matter. I do not think that either my brother or my sister, really wants to do this, but his apartment has to be cleared out as well. And of course, that matter has to be taken care of immediately, its not like any Landlord, would want one of their units 'sealed' up for too long. Yet, I have not talked to my sister, to see what her schedule is like, or my brother's. I am sure that these same thoughts are going through their heads.

So far, the buzz is that there may be a cremation, and a private service; since I have worked at a cemetary in the area, with the facilty to do cremation, I already explained that there is no cremation allowed in the city limits of San Francisco, I explained to my brother, that a funeral home can make the arrangements, and then send out the body to be cremated, and when the cremains return, then the service can be arranged. I think I still need to check that out, the laws may have changed; that there could be a crematory in the city limits. I hate this waiting because, well, my brother, they estimate, have been deceased for about 5 days as of today.

If any of you out there, that may be reading this and know anything about this kind of stuff, any little detail, that we may not know about, that would make things go alttle smoother, please let me know. I would really appreciate it. Already, I know that I have to contact the Social Security Office... what else could there be ?

PEACE!

Big Bro

Its a very cold and windy day today, but I knew that I had to go to the bank and just take care of some business. I got dressed, and walked down to the bank, and I realized that I did not bring my cell phone with me. I wasn't going to be gone long, so it really did not matter. I spoke with a personal banker, and got alot of issues cleared up. I am glad of that. Wanted to have things cleared up so the New Year can be all fresh.

When I got back, my son told me to sit down; I said, What ? Well he answered my cell phone and said .. that the Alameda County just called and said that your brother Wayne T has passed away. Anyways, I called my parents, no answer.. I called my other brother, got his voice mail... GREAT! What do I do? I called back the number that was last called on my phone.. and got a Deputy Gonzales, and he told me that I was the first to know about this, that they tried to call my parents, and they did not understand enough english to understand what he was trying to convey.

I have been calling my brother just to say 'hi', and told him that I love him, and well, beng that he was on Diialysis, I knew many times that he did feel good after his treatments, needless to say, on his answerng machine, I still at least let him know that I was thinking about him. I am sure glad that I have done that!

I got a hold of my younger brother, and he will call me back as to what we need to do at this point. The deputy told me that they will take him with them to the county morgue, and that we need to get a hold of a funeral home, oh boy, am i ready for this? I have never had to actually do any of this. I know that there is alot to do when there are arrangements that have to be made. At this moment, I wait for my lil brother to call back. My sister is in Hawaii, having a vacation.

I did not realize that it was like happening as I was talking to the deputy. It was the Dialysis people that called the police letting them know that my brother has neveer missed a treatment, and that he did not show up, so, he was actually at my brother's apt as I was talking to him. Goodness! They will seal up him apartment, and I will contact him later with more information.
PEACE!

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Lookng for the New Year

Well, its Merry Christmas, and its going to be a GREAT new Year. As alot of you may have read, that I have been having some trying times, and I know that this upcoming new year is going to be ALL good.

I do not want to dwell on the issues that I have had to face in these past few months. It was emotional, stressful, and I have not felt some of these feelngs before. I have since dealt with alot of things: The State of California, Bank of America, and even my manager, new employees, new systems, landlords and a love lost. I can now say that alot of the things that I have had to deal with is at a state where I can say that is either taken care of, or at a point where its alot easier to handle.

My grandmother and my mother both said that I have alot of patience, but I did not understand what they really meant, until just recently. Many times I have felt like giving up, but what good is that? I feel that the endurance that I put forth has also helped me alot, the will to go on, not only for myself, but I have two kids (Adult Chldren) that are very close to me. I want to thank them too, at this time for putting up with me, and listening to me vent, and even giving me that extra push that I needed on days that I just did not think I wanted to face anymore 'crap'!

I started posting on my Yahoo blogg, and felt that getting it out in writing also helped me alot. And I find myself 'here'... now! :) I think back, and say, Yes, I have gone through alot, and that by not giving up can only be my strength! Never Give UP!!

PEACE!

PS: Only issue at the moment is that the bank HAD to hold my deposit for the this holiday weekend, so my 'holiday' is just a little delayed! ;)

Merry Christmas

This holiday season, I have decided to basically spend it alone! Yes, I think that I really want to do this. So, my plans are to be here, do what I want, when I want, and do not have to answer to anyone here on this earth. Nothing wrong with that, is there? Anyways, I have also realized that since I have made this decsion, well, It seems that every body that needs my assistance decides to come out of the wood work. Yepp... and well, I would be able to assist, if I were able to.
Really.. I would do whatever possibly can to help.
But when some one is insisting that there has to be a way... uh.... wow... I realize just how some people can be so selfish. I guess, the way that I feel is that, I feel pushed away, and then at the same time .... demanded upon... Would people just make up their minds?? Thats really all that I ask. I cannot read people's minds, and I cannot help if they do not say anything.
There has been situations that have come up that was quite to be unexpected, and uh, let me deal with what I have to deal with, but , please do not put anymore on my plate, ok ?
I wish that I could write down my feelings and have them sort out for me, whether it be work related, personal, personal finance, friendships.... just to have them sorted, that would be nice. Anyways, I just wanted to post tonight .. to guess to say Merry Christmas to all.... :)).... I know that the new year will be a good one!

PEACE!

Merry

I believe that the spirit of Christmas better be in your heart, before you go out and buy things for people that you do not like or even respect until after the fact..
I do understand that durng this season, the can be alot of depression, and sadness, for the people that they each have had to love in the past can effect people in a funny but good way.

When I first became to know the Lord Jesus Christ is the Saviour of our sins.. it was in July when I was baptised in Jesus' name. As I started to get to know our Lord, You do realize that the 'holidays' were pretty much right around the corner, I was starting to wonder about what I really believed in, because it was in that year that I realized just how 'commercial' the 'holidays' are. I kept it inside for a bit, and tried to just let things happen.. to allow my Christianity to grow and that I would feel the Love that we are 'supposed'to feel. Well, I ended up calling my Pastor for an appointment, because I was not feeing the Spirit like thought I should be. My Pastor eplained to me that alot of younbg Christians go through this, and that you are to still keep your Faith, and do what you know is right in your heart.
PEACE!

State of Calif

Battling the State of Calif
Anyways, I wanted to post today about my acheivement, mmmm well, acheivement may not even be the right word for it. I fought the State, and I won.

A few months back, I received from my payroll department, a notice that they were going to start to garnish my wages, for past due registration fees for a car, that I do not know anything about. This actually started in August, or so, and of course, I questioned it; this is fees for a car, back in '03. When I inquired, I found out that I never owned this 1987 Pontiac that they are talking about. They extended the procedure, and I was to follow up with a formal complaint, and talk to an investigator and all that good stuff. I am ready. I went back on my time line, and I was very sure of what I was doing at the time, and I even asked my kids, to verify what I was doing 2002- 2004. lets say. I wanted to be sure that when I talked to this investgator, I had it right on the button.

Well, the extention came to an end, and NO investigator called or even tried to contact me. HMMMM one of their phone reps even told me I should pay it, and then fight it. Well, Hello, that just is not my way of doing things. Not with the State, anyways. I needed the State to extend this order against me, and of course, I was the one that had to be on hold for hours on end, repeatng the story to various phone reps, and to get referred back to the first number that I called. LOL. Oh my, I remember back in October, that I really do not have the time or the energy to deal with this; but I knew that I had to do it. Down to the last 15 minutes of the deadline, that my payroll department had to comply with the law.

They did give me the SECOND extention. to be the final one, and that I had to make sure that it was cleared up, by Dec 30. How do you leave a message for the Investigation Dept, when they are not allowed to give out phone numbers of the investigators? Yes. You did read that right. So with all the energies, and research that I did, to make sure that I was definately on the straight and narrow, writing everything down. OHHHHHHHHHHH finally a John does call, with a restricted number, and wanted to make an appointment with me. WHOA Dang I wish that Yahoo's 360 did not mess up my orig blogg, I could link it. Anyways, My handwriting on the registration papers, my handwriting on the title. I still insisted that my time line was true and correct.. and that I had owned a Ford Taurus in 2003; but this was for 2002. Oh my the Toyota Celica. hmmmmm no. Its a 1987 Pontiac; don't know the model, though

Finally, what could I really say, when I could not deny m own handwritng. That particular investgator seemed to believe me. I am sure, after a background check on me, of course, and finally suggest that I just contact the State and fill out a release of liabilty. Not a problem. MOnday, I received from my payroll dept, a notice, that the State was going to start to garnish my wages, for the same 1987 Pontiac; Today, I decided to call, of course it took up all of my lunch time, and some. WEll, Finally when I got to talk to someone, she told me that that account had been closed out.WOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOO YES And she told me that they had faxed a termination of order to area code 845, well, anyone lives in Lake County, IL. will tell you that their area code is 847. Payroll still had not received the fax to stop it. Had to call the State back with the right Fax number. And as far as 3PM California time, the State said that they will refax.

Sigh, what a relief. When I was talking to the Payroll person, she told me that she was actually going to have to start the process this week, for next week's paycheck,,, I am sooooooo Glad that I called. Today has been the first day in week that I could say that I felt good enough to have to deal with that kind of business.
If I had owned the car, I would not mind paying what I owe. but I could not even picture the car in my head, to say that, ok, it could have been a Pontiac, but no.

Anyways PEACE

Guitar Hero Mama

I think I must be feelng better.... I played Guitar Hero (Face Off) with my son tonight! I did pretty good. Can you see me.... LOL...The BAssist for a rock band, or will I be a Gramma by that time? Hey there is nothing wrong with being both! I did pretty good..Got about 90% of the notes hit.

Guitar Hero is a great release, I believe for stress. It turns grumbles into laughter, no matter what age you are. I am still at the medium level, although I can go into the Hard level, but I know that I am not good enough, or fast enough with my fingers to be at the hard level. Each time I play a song, I know that I want my scores to get higher. Funny thing, I went to the Aerosmith and Motley Crue Concert... and I can play "Shout at the Devil" and "Last Child" pretty darn good ;)

Off to bed for more rest.... PEACE!

Feeling Better

Well, its Monday evening, and I wanted to share that this past weekend, I have had a various things going on. I did go to the Christmas party that the branch gave, and had a real good meal. We celebrated at a place called 'Dave & Busters', a place where there are games, a bar, and goood food. It was nice to be on a social level with the people at work. Kind of a different enviroment than the work place.

I have had the cold/flu that is going around, and I really did not feel like doing anything, but I went and it felt good to get out of the house, other than to go to work. I have had a situation with my landlord, that he has not been receivng my rent payments, but I do have the receipts to prove to him that HE is not posting to the right account. I had a "discussion" with him, and I do not think that I have ever had to feel so bad to try to talk to.... what you can call a business man!... Yea right! Needless to say, I felt my blood pressure go up.... did he care? I don't think so.... but I know I am in the right, sooooooooo Pls......

I had tried to post this past weekend, in reference to the banking thing, but for some reason, it did not post....I wll discuss that on another day. I am feelng better from this cold virus, I thought that I needed to post. :) Anyways, this is just an update as to what has been going on....on a personal level. I know that most 'bloggers' do not post about personal stuff, but things will start to get better, I feel it!

PEACE!

seven hours at work

and i am sickkkkkkkkkkkkkk ............ I will try to post.. but.. i can barely hold my head up...sniff sniff

It must be a Yahoo thing

I must be worried about the health issue. Time for me to eat heathier, and things like that. Most of us do not think about that kind of stuff.

Last night I again posted on my Yahoo 360 blogg, and again it did not show up as updated. How do have to wait for Yahoo to give an answer? It was mainly a test that I did, just to see... It says that I have not updated in quite some time...

Anyways.......... off to work I go...

PEACE!

Banking.... and Heart Attack

I have been having a major issue with my bank lately. Unfortunately, its a thing that has to do with THEIR rules. Since I have opened my account with them, and the real only use for that is for my payroll to be deposited into the acct. Yea, I wonder what real purpose there really is for banks. Granted, I used to be in the banking field, and it was ok, and I understoood what was going on. Everythng is so automated now, and it takes forever to talk to representative.

I had signed up for an online alert, so that if anything that comes into my account that I am not aware of coming into this account, pls call the 800 number. Is that supposed to stop the bank from paying this unauthorized debit that is about to hit the account? You would think.. right ? Oh no, they have to let it hit the account first, then....... if you have to dispute it... after it hits the account, and if it incurrs any fees along the way, they hold it for you until the dispute is been resolved. What use is that online bankng alert?

Oh yes, and there is that program too, that you round up the change... everytime you use the your ATM card... which can be okay, but to find out that ...in California, you can have only three transactions on a savings acct within a statement period. At least that is what I was told. I have found out so many different RULES to banking that I could not even keep track of the rules that they make us follow.

Yes. I would say that, within the past 4-5 months, that each time there has been an unauthorized debit, whether it was a truly an unauthorized debit, or something that the bank decided to charge me for... I have had fees reversed because of rules that one is not aware of, that I do not know which way is up or down. Yea, you must have a minimum balance, or show that you have deposited 25.00 a month... OH but did they tell you that it had to be an automated transfer from your checking??? And, well, for it to hit the account, by the 24th ??? No... the next charge coming through... Well, goodness, why don't you tell me this from the gate?

Oh wait, all transactions will go through so long its in the account by 10:30pm ??? No, not if the deposit is made at an ATM, Whoa....... and they tell you that you have such and such avail in your account.... hmmmm but did they tell you that there was a fee because the credit did not make that account, because you deposited it at the ATM 10 min after 6pm ??? and there was a debit coming through at the same time?

Needless to say, I am not very happy with the banking system anymore. Last night, I actually had to talk myself down from gettng myself so upset, that all could think about was how not to yell at these reps that have given wrong information to their own customers. I am a customer service rep, and you know, I would feel so guilty if I outright told my customers wrong information just to get them off the line. I know how calls can be tracked. But I think in the bankng field, they know that most of us are kind at their mercy, because of the way things have gotten so automated. I see ads in the paper about .... becoming a Personal Banker...Ha, yea, someone to peronally to tell you the banking policies when there are discrepencies occur on your account!

PEACE!

Banking.... and Heart Attack

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I have been having a major issue with my bank lately. Unfortunately, its a thing that has to do with THEIR rules. Since I have opened my account with them, and the real only use for that is for my payroll to be deposited into the acct. Yea, I wonder what real purpose there really is for banks. Granted, I used to be in the banking field, and it was ok, and I understoood what was going on. Everythng is so automated now, and it takes forever to talk to representative.

I had signed up for an online alert, so that if anything that comes into my account that I am not aware of coming into this account, pls call the 800 number. Is that supposed to stop the bank from paying this unauthorized debit that is about to hit the account? You would think.. right ? Oh no, they have to let it hit the account first, then....... if you have to dispute it... after it hits the account, and if it incurrs any fees along the way, they hold it for you until the dispute is been resolved. What use is that online bankng alert?

Oh yes, and there is that program too, that you round up the change... everytime you use the your ATM card... which can be okay, but to find out that ...in California, you can have only three transactions on a savings acct within a statement period. At least that is what I was told. I have found out so many different RULES to banking that I could not even keep track of the rules that they make us follow.

Yes. I would say that, within the past 4-5 months, that each time there has been an unauthorized debit, whether it was a truly an unauthorized debit, or something that the bank decided to charge me for... I have had fees reversed because of rules that one is not aware of, that I do not know which way is up or down. Yea, you must have a minimum balance, or show that you have deposited 25.00 a month... OH but did they tell you that it had to be an automated transfer from your checking??? And, well, for it to hit the account, by the 24th ??? No... the next charge coming through... Well, goodness, why don't you tell me this from the gate?

Oh wait, all transactions will go through so long its in the account by 10:30pm ??? No, not if the deposit is made at an ATM, Whoa....... and they tell you that you have such and such avail in your account.... hmmmm but did they tell you that there was a fee because the credit did not make that account, because you deposited it at the ATM 10 min after 6pm ??? and there was a debit coming through at the same time?

Needless to say, I am not very happy with the banking system anymore. Last night, I actually had to talk myself down from gettng myself so upset, that all could think about was how not to yell at these reps that have given wrong information to their own customers. I am a customer service rep, and you know, I would feel so guilty if I outright told my customers wrong information just to get them off the line. I know how calls can be tracked. But I think in the bankng field, they know that most of us are kind at their mercy, because of the way things have gotten so automated. I see ads in the paper about .... becoming a Personal Banker...Ha, yea, someone to peronally to tell you the banking policies when there are discrepenciesoccur on your account!

PEACE!

Happy Sunday!

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Well yes, it is Sunday.. It is Football Day for me (well)... I normally am an avid football fan, and could tell you all the stats for all of the teams, and who was leading in their division... But surely could not tell you right now.. :( I think the last day I really enjoyed a football game was on Thanksgving Night.. When the Chiefsssssssss kicked butt... Wooooooo hoooooooooo YEA!! And it was actually a good game too!

I would like to see the Chiefs and the Niners in the Super Bowl, and I really would not know who I would be rooting for. I know that they played earlier this year, but, come on now.. If anyone remembered that game, it has been a REAL long time since the Niners had been shut out, esp as bad as 30 something.... to... zip.. :-/ I am talking about watching a real good football game... Know what I mean???

Right now I am listening to some Allison Krause, I like her music alot. I missed her in concert her about a month ago.. She was sold out. I did go see Aerosmith and Motley Crue on the same bill. :)) That was a concert that I really did some dancing. They were close to sold out too! Its one of those Sundays, where its rainy wet out there, a good day to cook, or to just stay in bed.

I have already attempted to play 'Guitar HeroII'.......... but I am off today. I better not impose that on myself........LOLOL.........I WILL beat that game! Someday!

With that said, I think I will give it another try... and get some work done around here. Its going to be a busy week coming up, with the holidays, people taking vacation time off, makes me work more than my regular scheduled hours.

PEACE!

Okay... Do you think I can get this picture over there >>>>> where the profile thing is??? Goodness Gracious.... Uploading pics is not the hard thing.. but its saying that it wants it from a Photo share.. site... or whatever. It does not like Flickr and that is a share photo host sight. If I get some feed back on this .."Hello' program??? I think that what it is requestng, but not much on 'how to', at least not for the profile area.. LOL.

PEACE!

Surprise Heart Attack?

I have been working on this thing all day :) and I am liking what I am doing. I have had some breaking news in the past couple of days, that I was not real sure how I was going to handle. I am here in front of this computer, because I know that I really have to keep my mind occupied. With the link above (or below) to the original story... and now I will go on. When I found out that my kids' father had a massive heart attack and was hosptalized, I was more concerned for the kids and how they were going to deal with this.

I know that it usually is a surprise, when someone you know has a heart attack. Its not a pleasant thing to hear about; Its pretty scary, I would say. Each of the kids reacted to this so differntly, that I was so glad that I was able to at least talk them down from what worries and stress that they were feeling. I felt that they did not know how to act in my presence, but I reassured them that I would be there for them, and yes, I did show my concern for their father. He had been my EX for close to 25 years.
He is only a couple years older than I am, but still, it really made me think about alot of things. Alot of the 'what if's', and I know that the kids & I were thinking the same thing. I would have never really given it much thought of such an awkward positon for the kids to be in, and as well, I also felt that same awkwardness.

I am the one the one that is keeping the pharmecuetical companies in business...LOL...(not funny), but alot of thoughts came into my head that scared me to do what I did the other night:

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and for doing that, I knew that I would be stronger, and be the strength that my children needs during this time. Yes, It was a surprise to hear that my ex had a massive heart attack. I mean to think that not so long ago in our youth, what crazy things we were doing in the 60's. :)

He is leaving the hospital today, and the kids are with him, and the kids know that I have them on my mind.
I am glad that I had some productive time,today that kept my mind busy. Thank you for lettng me share!

PEACE!

Thats really me...LOL

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So I am reading along here in the help section as to how to post a pic on my profile, Did anyone else have this much a 'learning' experience? I sure hope I am doing this right!

PEACE!

Here I Am

Well, I am.. and trying to put together this site.. page... blogg... and I really think that I am havng fun with this. I have started other bloggs on other sites, but it really is nothing like this one that I am creating now. There has been issues with the other sites, so please do not be alarmed if the link that you may click on, may not seem like they are updated.. (or something). I have been trying to show people that I DO have a blogg that is older than 90 days old, and with more than 20 posts on it... but it just does not seem to be there. I did not think that I wilted away after September 24, 2006.... No posts after that date.. some say. Others have said, Oh, Nov 11... or Nov 17... and some even see them all... So with that said, I knew that alot of what I was trying to share...Is not there? I see them, when I am logged into that search engine, and then when I am not.. I think, Wow.......... September 24 .......... that was a while ago, and there has been alot going on.

So, I have been looking around for another place to share my thoughts, of all kinds of various things. I also have been doing alot of research on ....'Blogging'... and it seems like it can get pretty technical, and yet creative at the same time. So please bare with me, also while I am learning new things... and probably trying things out .. here... :)

I suppose I am here to introduce myself.. I am Motherdeva... a screen name that my children helped me with when I very first started to come onto the internet. That would be about ... 6 or 7 years ago. Yes... I have been in chat... many moons ago it seems.. they are not like they used to be. I was one that would go into the Yahoo chat rooms... under the music catagory.. and into the 'Oldies' or the 'Classic Rock and Blues' rooms (and of course into the country rooms, as well).
We would go down the list of chatters in the room, and each of us would be able to share a couple of songs to the rest of the room, through the mic.. .and of course, when we were listening to music, we also chatted and I have developed many friendships that I still keep dear to me now.

Anyways, I do not really know what else to write about at the moment... I know that I had to at least post one entry since I did open this account to start one. I want to thank you for coming by and reading what ever it is that I need to write about. The other sites,, well, that I have been posting on.. has alot of history about me, and it seems kind of strange to 'start over' ... and to have all my thoughts together and to make any kind of sense, I really had to start up again. I am not an author, or a poet... I have always kept a journal, since high school (It was part of the American Lit class that I had to take).

I often thought that it would be a good idea to be to share some of the thoughts and feelings that we each have gone through, and to even tell a tale on the lessons that we have learned from our experiences. Anyways, here I am, and I am glad you came by to read :)) and to say Hello!

PEACE!